Thursday, June 26, 2008
I've been contemplating all week about whether or not I would write how I feel on this blog and after today I've decided.... What the heck, why not. I have been blessed with a job opportunity that would usually only be offered to people with a Bachelor's Degree in Business Administration and 5 years of Administrative Assisstant experience. I've been in this position for a week now and it is a bit demanding. I don't mind it though. It's nothing I can't handle. The only thing that has been bugging me is the fact that I actually have to choose between school and work. If I am to succeed in this job, then school is something that I am going to have to hold off on. After getting my A.A., I was so excited about pursuing my educational dreams but now, I'm loving my job. If I continue to remain in this job, I can afford to put both TJ & I through school. I wouldn't be able to fit school into my schedule but I can definately afford to put my husband through school. I was promoted to be an executive assisstant to the CEO and lately, I leave for work at 8:00 and get home around 7:30-8:00. I sit back and think sometimes whether or not I should slow down with school and just concentrate on helping my husband finish but the selfish side of me keeps wanting to do both school and work. I've been crying all week because I feel like if I don't finish school that I am some sort of failure. My family keeps saying, Just take a class or two every semester online." My major is mathematics so I dare anyone to try and take an online multi-variable calculus class online without an actual teacher to ask 50 million questions to. I hear about life challenging experiences in movies but I never thought I'd be in a situation to make a life challenging decision. I've re-read my patriarcal blessing looking for answers but I haven't decided yet. Do I get a demotion from work to accomodate a school scedule? or Do I stay with this over paid position and concentrate on putting my husband through school? Does anyone see my frustrations right now???? Am I just being a spoiled, self-centered, irritating brat? Putting my husband through college is not that big a deal for me. I want to be able to do that. The part that is irritating me is putting myself through school. Is that selfish of me? This blog is way to long.... I'll write again when I get an answer. I love everyone......
at 8:09 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I know its kind of funny but these are the only pictures of graduation that I could get because my aunt who brought a camera to my graduation forgot to put batteries in the damn thing. Anyhow, here's proof...lol... They are the photographers pictures. I would order them but the prices are so not the business....
at 1:39 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
It's almost surreal how calm this day has been. TJ & I have been so busy the past couple of weeks/ months with school, work, and family. I had to work last night and I didn't get off until after 10 so TJ decided that we were just going to rest today. Although its been nice, its also been kinda boring. We almost feel as though we were doing something wrong because we weren't really doing anything at all. In any case, it was nice to just be with each other. Couples need that every once in a while.
In other news... SBVC finally had a commencement ceremony on wednesday and I participated in it. I'm in the far left right in front of the people with the gray gowns. Can you see me. I got there late and ran in line because everyone was already walking out... It was lots of fun. My family and best friends were there so you can only imagine how excited I was to have everyone in the same room. I haven't really been trying to broadcast the fact that I was graduating because I thought.... Why make a big deal about it, it's only an Associates Degree. TJ didn't like that way of thinking and made it a point to help me understand that it was an accomplishment. It has taken me six years to do it but I am really excited that I got it. I am the first in my generation to get a degree higher than a high school diploma and being fourth to the youngest grandchild out of 89, I can honestly say that I am proud of myself. I love my husband for continuing to make me feel like my small accomplishments have helped change the world. I laugh at him sometimes but deep down inside I really do feel special. I'm very grateful because he's a Salanoa and my Salanoa sisters know that sentimentality is a lot to ask for from one of the Salanoa brothers....lol.... Well, that's all for today guys. To anyone reading this, be happy, stay beautiful, and keep smilin.
at 4:13 PM